When I had to fight to be a man.

While she had been my only love,
I had been her everyone, her anyone.
I treated her like she was the only gem in my life,
In return she treated me as though I was the only germ,
Yes jam in her life. But I understand her well,
But my undoing was to trust her,
So much with my heart, my hurt.

To me, she was the only number,
But to her, I was just a statistic.
While I was comfortable with one fan,
She wanted, “kujaza stadi”.
She had never been materialistic,
Material things loved her instead.
But my undoing was to trust her,
So much with my heart, my hurt.

While everyone will think
I have ruined my life and wasted my precious time,
I will be happy knowing,
That time and chance happen to everyone circumstances notwithstanding .
I plan to be so busy and hope you don’t understand.
But my undoing was to trust her,
So much with my heart, my hurt.

I got up from my lowest point,
In return you created a new low in me.
I will never regret dating you coz I gave you my all,
I loved you the best I knew how.
Apparently, you gave me your none and,
I have decided 99% is not what I bargained for.
But my undoing was to trust her,
So much with my heart, my hurt.

It was not only a long distance relationship,
But a distance long relationship too.
I felt closer when you were far away,
And far removed whenever you were near me.
All the croc’ tears you shed for the wrongs you did,
And not the wrongs I righted all this while.
But my undoing was to trust her,
So much with my heart, my hurt.

I have learnt not to fight to be a man,
However, I will fight when I’m a man.
You have made me to tread on my values,
I am glad my value systems remain intact.
I have known what it feels like to be hurt and forgive,
I have given someone a second chance to hurt me more.
But my undoing was to trust her,
So much with my heart, my hurt.

Jafwambogikeyo #Barrister Barry

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